Hilton Head 2009

We spent the week in Hilton Head and it was so much fun! There were 3 babies in the house which made life very interesting. Grayson loved the pool, but not swimming in the ocean so much. He did like to go to the beach in the evening and feel the wind in the little hair he has left!

animal mothers

Over the past few weeks Ryan and I have been watching Planet Earth. If you have not seen it, you need to. It is amazingly beautiful and makes you really appreciate how perfect our Earth is. The precision in how everything works together exactly is testiment of God's greatness and perfection.

As I have learned so much from mothers around me, I had no idea that animals in the wild could also teach me so much about being a mother. Last night, Planet Earth featured the humpback whales. Before the mother gives birth, she travels thousands of miles to warm tropical waters to have her calf. While there she uses all of her fat storages to nurse her calf while the total lack of food leads the mother close to starvation. She endures to make sure her baby can grow up in a safe warm place. When grown, the mom leads her calf to the polar seas and her first food in almost a year. Once there, the calf goes out on his own to start his own life. The whales were just one of many examples of how mothers in the animal world will risk everything to protect and raise thier young. No matter how different all the fish, animals, birds, or people in the world, the Lord made all mothers the same. Pretty neat.

Grayson vs. stuff

As of Friday I am now officially a stay at home mom. It is hard to actually believe that the time has finally come when I can spend everyday with my precious baby boy. Believe me, I have grappled with this decision for years ever since we decided we were going to have children. I always thought I wanted to be a working mom, but over the last two years I have done a complete 180. As we struggled with infertility and were unsure if the Lord would bless us with a little one, I had an even greater sense that my place is with my family first and formost. I don't know if it was the struggle to obtain something that is so easy for others, that changed my heart. If so then the Lord clearly knows what He desires for me and will take me through the hardships to open my eyes.

The control freak in me is terrified by my new endevour as I am married to a teacher who gets paid...as a teacher. I constantly, even still, wonder if we can do it. We live in an age where we HAVE to have so much stuff. It seems impossible to live on one income because of the nessesity of cable, internet, cell phones, nice cars...etc. Sadly, already it has been a challenge to always pick Grayson over all this stuff. Thankfully the Lord is good. He, as He always does, gently reminds me that He is in control and will meet every need. For that I am already blessed. The little blessings both monetary and not are more meaningful now as we make a seeminng huge sacrifice.

I thought it was interesting that on my last day of school I was told by four different people at different places and different times that I will never regret staying home with my children. The Lord speaks in amazing ways, I just need to keep listening.

p90x

Well, I figure I should post about the other big part of our lives right now besides our little Grayson. P90x has taken the Fuderer house by storm...and what a storm it is. For those of you that don't know what it is, it is an EXTREME home fitness workout that lasts for 90 days. Is uses body stacking to trick your muscles...whatever that means. We are about 50 days into it and wow is it crazy hard. It is getting a bit easier with time but, it is kicking my butt! We do hundreds of pushups, crunches, pull ups (Ryan, not me) and lift tons of weight. The results are pretty amazing, although not as much in our house because we don't exactly follow the diet (I'm eating a big bowl of ice cream right now). I do feel great though and it has been wonderful to get the baby weight off.

We just finished Yoga X, which to me (little miss flexible) is a monster. It is so freakin hard that I congratulate myself every time I finish, hence the ice cream. Ryan did great as well (mister NOT flexible). Now I get to relax until tomorrow...an hour of core work. Yikes.

Three months!

Well, its been a while! Grayson is now three months old and doing lots of fun things! He can put his hands together, focus' on faces, yells (he found his voice), and he rolled over in his crib! I can't believe how big he is getting. He is so fun!